A little too deep

After last week’s seminar I had to do some deep soul searching. I did a renewal self evaluation. Looking at the history of this country; America, the “Land of the Free” and its history in engrained in slavery and barbarism, murder, and rape. What an embarrassment. I used to look down on Germany for their actions in the Holocaust, but America is no better. Looking at this topic I had to decipher everything about myself. Am I living a lie? My language, my heritage, even my religion. I had to question whether being a Christian was right. How could people enslave others, change their names, identity; break up families in the name of God? I had to question whether I wanted to believe in that same God. The white man’s God who they stood steadfast on His words. The more I learn the more confused I become. I have mixed feelings about a lot of this. Many people have told me that slavery happened so long ago and that it should be left as a part of history, but when I see the effects that it has on people today I cannot leave it in the past. I am always telling my kids to be mindful when they are in stores. Don’t touch anything and keep your hands out of your pockets! I say. I cannot get help in certain stores but I can sure be followed. Just on Thursday I was followed in Sears of all stores the sales lady never once asked if I needed any help but she followed me all the way to the door. I thought she was coming home with me but I guess not. All I could think about is what the hell I am going to steal from Sears. Damn, I tried to steal the lawnmower but it wouldn’t fit in my pocket. Subtle racism is the worst because you know it is there but the other person is doing a terrible job of covering it up. I do not want to live in a peaceful world where everything is rosy. I want people to be real and genuine. If you are scared to touch me because my blackness may rub off on you let me know. I like to know how people feel up front; it eliminates all the guess work.

Myspace free speech or pain in the a$$?

I agree that the first amendment is a very important right, but where does one draw the line? Looking at MySpace I have found people post personal information about themselves; fine, but no one has the right to post personal information about others. I have found other personal information about myself and others posted on people's pages, even my relatives will post pictures that should have mysteriously caught on fire. This upsets me because I found pictures of my children on MySpace with their names next to the pictures. Maybe I am being a little too overprotective but it just seems creepy for people to see my kids in public, know their names and who they are related to. MySpace is a haven for sexual predators, stalkers, and other criminals. All the information one needs is provided on the first page. Some do not even need to talk to the victim. People post their names, city that they live in, and age. Sometimes that it all a person needs to know to find you. Don't get me wrong it has some benefits. I found the girl who hit my car on MySpace because she had posted the city where she lives. The CHP would not even give me that information, so I filed a complaint and she was served with a subpoena to appear in court. Without MySpace that would have been virtually impossible. See, how easy it was for me to find someone!!!

Blogging Frustration

O.k. I am fairly new to this whole computer age. I am not good at blogging. I have been trying to get on to the CSUMB web site for about an hour with no luck. Is anyone else having problem with the sites today? A little about me, I have been a CSUMB for 1 year and will be graduating this semester. My plans are to go off to law school, maybe become a law professor. I am still undecided, seeming that I went to school to become a nurse. Forgive me if this is so boring but it is my first time.